What is love

In our century more in our times, it is more simple to find one night stand, instead of true, deep and clean love. For some people it is just a game. People prefer to hurt other people in exchange of one time joy. I used to be in love. I am in love. I have never thought that someone can hurt me so bad. Emotionally and physically. The moment when your second half starts to act weird, and putting all their anger on you. And you just sit there with only one thought on your mind. WHY? Why i deserve that. I have never thought in my life that i will love someone so much, like i was loving. But in the same time i am asking myself, IF IT WAS REALLY LOVE or just big addiction or attraction. Hard to understand, very hard. But i understand now that sometimes it is better to stay alone, instead of living in big pain all the time. With tears in my eyes and with completely broken heart, i am trying to understand what is happening.
I am not so sure anymore that it was love. Because if you love someone you do everything for the person, witch i was doing, and in exchange i got frighted, screamed at, and not respected. I am just not ready for this type of life. You always have to remember to put yourself, before anyone else in exchange to be truly happy. After 3 years, i have finally do it. And i could not feel more free, safe and calm. I am starting to realize that there is more in this life than i was seeing.
No matter what happened with both of our life, there will be always a special place for this person. Not all was bad. But you know what they say. There can be one million good things, and then comes one little bad thing, witch erases all the good things. And then you just have to start to build again all the good things back. It is like a circle witch can not be broken by one person only. You both have to work for it.
I know that i am still young, and i have all my life in front of me. But it is always very hard to start all from zero. But you always have to stay strong and true to yourself no matter what.
To anyone who is suffering from violence. Remember that you always can choose to leave. For maybe just one time in your life put yourself in front of anyone else, it helps. Do not be afraid to leave.Be brave. Love yourself. And never give up.

XOXO Small Town Girl.

Crossroad

And there you was
standing in the middle of the crossroad
thinking about life what to choose
thinking about all mistakes what have been made
thinking about what if i go left
thinking bout what if i go right
you never know which road to take
you never know if choice will be the best one
but this is why we are here
for make mistakes
for learn from them
for make decisions
for be happy
Our life is a big crossroad
the only diference is that when you chose your way
there is no way for go back
you have to look only forward
you have to learn life in hard way
it is what it is
So be happy
Enjoy your life on maximum,
and never ever be afraid of making the wrong choices
because from wrong choices, we come out better and stronger persons.



XOXO Small Town Girl

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Our world

If anything then you

If everything then also you

Your smile in the morning

Your breath on my neck

Your look into my eyes

Your hand on my hand

All is for you

You make my world better

With all those things

All those little things

what may for others are nothing

but for me it sure means world

world in which we are together

world where we live by our rules

because we don't care about others

we care only about each other

we smile for each other

we breath for each other

we wake up for wach other

and it's not just some feeling

it's more than LOVE

it's more than even we can imagine

because it's special

And special only for US.

XOXO Small Town Girl.

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XOXO Small Town Girl. 

Life goals.

Setting goals is the first step in turning the invisible into the visible.

Tony Robbins

Every human life is to be installed for the goals which he intends to achieve. For some of us, these goals are bigger, for some smaller.
Many of us are asking themself: 'Why do I need these goals?' 'My answer to all this is very simple: You can not live your life without achieving anything, your main goal in life is to make the world better. And how you can make it better?! Well i think start with making your goals. Yes, maybe it will not be so easy to achieve it, but hey al least you will try. You do not have to live your life with thought about something. You can live your life with pleasure of achieving your goals. And like the quote says at the start: ''Turn the invisible into the visible''. This is how you need to think, you have to be more positive about your wishes. For example, you would like to be a good photographer, i would say why not?! It is only up to YOU. Take your camera, and start taking pictures, YES at the start they will maybe not look so proffesional, but imagine if you set this your goal, in the end by wanting to achieve you will be very good at this. Live your life without fear about what will think others, live your life with confidence. We are strong when we are confident, and that is what makes each of us beautiful. Imagine every people who is successful, you realy think that they are where they are just because they was lucky?! Of course not, they are there, because they have been setted up for themselfs a lot of different goals, goals who they achieve. Even if it is something small what you want to achieve you just have to do it. Believe me guys you can have everything in your life like you want, just trust in yourself and do not be afraid to go all the road from start to finish. Be an inspiration to others, tell them how awsome it is to be a producer of your life. Tell everyone how you become a person who you are now. Just remember life is big journey, so live this journey as maximum as you can.


XOXO Small Town Girl.

 

Family Drama

We allways know that family has to stick together, need to support each other. But in real life you are allways on your own. When it comes to share some properties, money and other stuff they can put knife in your back and act very selfish. I allways knew that my family has a lot of drama, and i was shure that it can't be more worst. But hey i was complitely wrong. It can be more worst, and actually it's horrible.
So all started a lot of years ago, when my grandparents was still alive. They had an apartment, well my gradfather had an apartmnet, wich after his death should go to my cousin(my mothers youngest sisters son),  but of course my grandmother writed apartement to her name. Ok, all family didn't mind about that. After many years my grandmother got sick, and when she was on bed, like she couldn't move a lot, my mothers older ssister used this situation for herself, and she writed apartement on her name without telling anyone. All family knew it from strange people, and of course we wasn't happy anymore, because only what she could care about is to sold apartement and got the money. But for us this place is more than just the way to get money, it's place where we grew up, it's place where we spended a lot of times, it's place full with memories. So when all family was against her, she changed her mind and didn't sold apartement, she let my mother to live there. Till this moment, when she find out that there is some comunal payements what my mother couldn't afford to pay, because she sometimes even didn'thad enough money even for by food.So because of this she wanted to kick out my mother from apartement, knowing that she has no place where to go. Of course this just didn't finished with her kicking out my mother from there. Because when youngest sister called and screamed at her about all,the oldest siter gor confused. She promissed that she will write apartement on my mothers name, after few hour i see that she putted out apartement out on sale, when we call her and say that she has to take out this annoucement she is saying no. I just can't understand, does she even have some moral princips?! Whos does that to his own family. Tomorrow they go to notaras, hopfully all will be ok. And all the bad things what she tries to do to family will come back for her. Because the guy up there, well HE sees all. And don't you guys agree that normal family will stand by each other trough the life.?!

p.s i am sorry guys for put this out in such a messy story, just when i write it gets me feel better.

XOXO Small Town Girl.